| Friday, February 24th, 2006 |
| 5:48 pm |
fuck fuck fuck
ok so its Friday...quick update...im not at eckerd anymore.I called cathy a dumb cunt.I am not at the billing co.anymore i was fired for being late and cussing out a Bluecross Blueshield rep...Now i am a loan officer lol no realy. I work for Chesapeake ventures Groupe on main street with Crystal.I love it.My boss is such a sweetie.On the personal note Tyree is such a fucking asshole.Thanks for not being a friend you fucking Dick.Why do people always disapeare when you need them..Oh well moveing on.DC dident work out not even for the weekend i hate DC and plan to never go back.Well anyway i am going out to Baxters with "the Girls" lol all i am doing is killing time soooo see yall soon....Or maby not lol Current Mood:  crazyCurrent Music: Madonna "hung up" |
| Sunday, December 25th, 2005 |
| 7:01 pm |
christmas day.............ahhh
So i made it through the holidays and had a great time...Crystal and i woke up early drank champain and opened gifts...it rocked then i took a nap got some trees and ate way to much and made an appearance at my mothers house.were i got the most useless gifts i have ever got.I am currently getting ready to go back home and get ready to leave.I am going to DC to spend some time with the bears.Ray has an interview at some hospital down there...I have my fingers crossed.Because this is what i need to get me the fuck out of this area.Ray ,Louis and tyree are most deffinently worth there salt.If they pull through.... No real comment except merry christmas to all and to all suck my dick Current Mood:  amusedCurrent Music: lemonheads |
| Monday, November 28th, 2005 |
| 9:49 pm |
FUCK THANKSGIVING
Keeping this short!! Friday woke up, with extreme toothache from chipping molar on bone. Had to get tooth pulled. Percosets made everything good. Sunday kicked Becky and Beth's ass out. FOR BEING BITCHES. PERCOSETS made everything GOOD AGAIN!!! Out of percosets sooooo going to DC for some Ass....perin.. and what ever else. Can't wait to move to DC!!!!! AND GET AWAY FROM THESE BITCHES..48 MORE DAYS AND COUNTING......IN CONCLUSION....BENADRYL MILKSHAKES MAKE PEOPLE MORE INTERESTING!!! Current Mood:  bitchyCurrent Music: MADONNA |
| Saturday, November 19th, 2005 |
| 2:19 am |
LONG TIME........
Its been a while, the wounds have healed and time is on my side. Lots going on but, don't feel like getting into it. I have the feeling this year is going out with a BANG!! Considering things are going MY way. When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot, hang on and SWING..... MOTHERFUCKER!!!!! |
| Friday, June 24th, 2005 |
| 1:33 am |
another chapter in the book of brian.....
Today was my last day at school.It was a very sad day but liberating.The past week has bin a very rough week for me or so it should have bin.To start out i fucking hated school.Thoes bitches made me feel like such shit i would leave school haveing my world crushed.But now it is not my worries anymore.... On the subject of jeff after this little tidbit i am compleatly putting the past 8 mo away.Ok to start out i have not bin myself for the past 8 mo.I hae turned myself into what i thought jeff wanted and i am not happy with what i see.I am not the kind of person to belittle people or inflect pain deliberatly.However i am a very jellous needy person.I put myself first and everyone else last.But i have not done that Jeff has bin put on a pedistal with risers.Sorry but that is not how things work.In doing this i have bin filled with pain hurt and all that.But it is noones fult but my own.In closeing i will not look at things as what i have done wrong but what i did write.I will also say on the opposit side of the spectrum i have nothing but love for jeff.But sadly i dont think a friendship will work out without weirdness.Or feelings of hostility.So i leave thease words for only jeff..... Jeff you are a sweet guy with a good heart and a person like me only drags a person like you down.If i never see you again i do want you to know i do love you just not on the leval that i thought.But regaurdless whatever you do in your life i hope you maintain happyness and you get all the things you want and need.Plus remember you helped me get were i am today and for that i thank you.. On a compleatly different note this will be my last entry in livejournal.I have realised that i do not like the idea of people reading whats going on in my head,it is no ones buisness what i am doingand furthermore i dont care what anyone else does. SSSSo in conclusion i feel that another point of my life is over and i can graduate to the next point.To all thankyou for the responces,thanks for being there and thanks for letting me vent..... Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: lords of acid |
| Tuesday, June 21st, 2005 |
| 12:31 pm |
update
I dont know were to begin.Yesterday i went to the hospital to see my aunt and this is about the worst i have ever sceen her.She couldent breath and theay were starting to give her morphiene.I know in the back of my head that she doesent have very long left.But my bigest problem is at what point should i call my family in VA beach and let them know.My mother told me thay were on vacation and only call if "it was the end of the world"well i think this is close enough. On the other hand Jeff and i have come to an end.It was a mutual split and there are no hard feelings tords him and i hope the other way around.I want to try and stay friends but in the same scence i dont see that happaning.People go away for a reason.I hate to say it but i dont think i am going to make any effert to call him.However i would like to but it just doesent feel right. On the up sied i am going to go and test drive a neon today i got a call from the dealership and it is in my price range.hopefully i can talk the salesman down lower. well thats it kinda bummed kinda sleepy and still feelin a o k by all Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: Babes in toyland |
| Sunday, June 19th, 2005 |
| 5:23 pm |
IIIIIm baaaack
After much thought and countless conversations i have come to realise that the old Brian is back.....Maby good Maby bad but i dont give a fuck............So suck my dick with a smile Bitches Current Mood: crazyCurrent Music: Hole "Guttless" |
| Saturday, June 18th, 2005 |
| 12:43 pm |
Whats going on?????
This morning i got up unusualy early i had to go and get a tire at the dealership due to me blowing one thursday.while waiting for it to be ballanced i got to test drive a mozda thing???It was so sweeeet not only was it fast but it was sexxxy.I came so close to buying it but truth be told it wasent what i wanted!!!On the other side i am going for my exturnship in the beginning of July with a 70% chance of a job at union hospital.How fucking cool is that??On the sadder note my aunt is currently in the hospital on the"way out" man this is just like last year this time.But hay whatcha gonna do.I havent sceen Jeff in like 5 days I finaly feel like i miss him.But in the same scence i have had the whole week to concintrate on myself and i like it.This may sound fucked up but its nice to miss someone and not give a fuck.soo thats it i need to masterbate gatta go lata... "hay hay watch me wave goodbuy to yesterday nothing left in my way" Current Mood: crazyCurrent Music: Breaking Benjermin |
| Wednesday, June 15th, 2005 |
| 3:57 pm |
all work no play makes bri a dull boi
just got done cigarette city made a small trip to the hospital and am going to eckerd.Hope i dont get stuck there all night... Current Mood:  exhaustedCurrent Music: L.B. My way |
| Tuesday, June 14th, 2005 |
| 12:38 pm |
School is cool..............gag gag gag
Last night Beth called me and asked me to pick her up.After doing so we went to her house and hung out eventualy Becca Ryan and Beccas little thug friends showed up.All i am gonna say is who me like attention......shortly after two more little yo girls showed up and ding ding ding i was on center stage.Not long after the conversation got roleing i broke out Beths guitar and started "ripping up the tunes"I may only know twinkle little star"but i have courtney love disorder i improved lots of other songs and when it all came down to it i fucking rocked.If anything else it was great makeing other people smile. But you know what......I wanna be a rock star.....I wanna make a sceen......I wanna be loved and hated by the public......But most of all i want to be remembered for something School was cut short for me today because i am caught up as far as all my assignments and i am not a medical ass....but as of thursday i do gatta stay a full day.Oh wow i just relised my last comment maby i am a medical ass....lol alright i am sick of this and i am going to go swimming so latter Current Mood: dorkyCurrent Music: 7 year bitch |
| Saturday, June 11th, 2005 |
| 4:06 pm |
Whats going on
Today i have bin sobbing from the time i got up i dont know what i feel.I went to my shrink thursday and started my meds friday same day that shit went down with me and jeff..Dident see him for two days hoped we would do something nice together but no he got fucked up and so did i.No biggie but from there things got worse and ended up with him handing his ring to me.At that point i literaly felt my heart rip out of my chest regaurdless of weather he said "keep it for safe keeping" So i launched the motherfucker into the road and stormed off.All i wanted was to cry in private but no i dont realy feel like going on with the story but i was under the impression that this was the end.I was so angry and hurt and just wanted to die.I wound up going to elk neck state park and just sitting and thinking and crying and it was very therapudic.I dont currently know whats going on but i will say no matter what Jeff i still love you regaurdless. "Hear i am once again torn into peaces hear tonight deep inside but you wolnt see the tears i cryed behind thease hazil eyes" Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: Kelly Clarkson |
| Thursday, June 9th, 2005 |
| 11:37 am |
blah....
I am getting out of school early today because my medical office class if exempt for me today.Due to the fact that i am not a medical assistant.My billing class is up to date and the option to leave early was up so i took advantage of it.Me going to school today was a wast of time and i am so glad it is over at the end of this month.Befor leaveing my administrater pulled me aside and told me if i were shorts again i was going to be sent home so i gatta fallow dress code.........Tuesday when i show up i will be in a nice knee legnth skirt.That will be fucking great because i will still be in dress code.Plus what can they say......Nothing hahahaha fucking bitches.Today due to the yesterdays turn of events i am calling and trying to get an appointment to go to my shrink today.I wish i would have went but i dont think it was ment to be.Atleast yesterday. However last night i ran into my old friend Therace we spent a wile talking then Beth showed up and i refused to talk to just her and she got huffey.Big deel it seemes that i am running into people from school alot recently and i have more friends then what i thought.Its odd when you look around i dont see a hand full of people but when i feel like i need someone people just come out of the woodwork. New friends are great but old friends are the greatest Well i guess i gatta go do laundry so lata Current Mood: crazyCurrent Music: courtney love "But Julian--------" |
| Wednesday, June 8th, 2005 |
| 6:35 pm |
great day
So today after work i went and sceen crystal and neligh.thought it would be cool to hang out.Went to Adrias cafe then to goodwill.On the way back my car began to act funny all of a sudden it stalled.At this point i am on the verge of tears.It wouldent start as it turns out it was out of gas......LOL Current Mood: cynicalCurrent Music: none |
| Tuesday, June 7th, 2005 |
| 8:08 am |
HAPPY TUESDAY
HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY ITS TUESDAY............THREE MORE DAYS TILL PAYDAY...................TWO MORE DAYS TILL THURSDAY..................AND ONE MORE DAY BEFOR I GET MY HEAD SHRUNK............AH FUCK IT "SORRY MAN SORRY I GOT BAD VIBES FROM YOU I SHOULDENT HAVE LOOKED AT IT IM SORRY MAN NOT GONNA SINK TILL TILL I SWIM" MRS JONES BY NONE OTHER THEN HOLE Current Mood: creativeCurrent Music: DUGH READ MY BALLS BITCH |
| Thursday, June 2nd, 2005 |
| 11:20 am |
whats going on?????
I think im lost..as far as this class goes.I am realy horney!!!!Needin dick Current Mood: hornyCurrent Music: nirvana |
| Wednesday, June 1st, 2005 |
| 11:25 am |
personal update
This morning when i got up i did what i usualy do on a day off from school and work.I made coffee put some laundry in the washer and went outside.I dont know what i was kind of flower i was smelling but it was unbeliveable.I dident wake up feeling like shit today and that is unusual for me.On the other side as far as the job and school thing goes i started my medical office class yesterday.It is such bullshit.Anyone can file a folder.Or that shit on the job side at work the other day wile talking to larry at work i was told about a job he thought i would be good at a pharmacy auditer.I dont know what it is but it sounds good.Besides its not medical billing or codeing. On the friend note i want to start beating my head into a wall.I dont know who i am friends with and who im not.After all friendship doesent cost a thing.I love Beth but when i hang out with her i feel like i am doing something wrong.I love Beckie but it is hard to get up with her and as far as others are concerned i like the fact that if i dont see them for a wile when i do we can always pick up were we left off. Things between me and Jeff are good we had some problems but theay have bin worked through.There are things that bother me as i know there are things i do to bother him. But when it all comes down to it who cares.I wish i could just make him understand how much i love him. So i will end with a quote..........no i dont think so Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: Rancid |
| Tuesday, May 31st, 2005 |
| 11:34 am |
in class
God i hate this class..and am not happy with this comp program.... .....I am born to loose and destined to fail............. Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: Social Des. |
| Thursday, May 26th, 2005 |
| 3:17 pm |
its over......
Good going to me in my codeing class i got a 98% over all for codeing 3 and a 90 for my combined grade in all 3....I hate to pat my own back so i wolnt.............................who am i kidding i fuckin rock.. Current Mood: chipperCurrent Music: Hole "Rock Star" |
| 9:12 am |
yawn..
I decided to get as much homework done as i could lastnight.Somewere around 3 i fell asleep at the kitchen table.About five my mother woke me up and i tryed to go back to sleep.It dident work around 6 i was back up cracking the whip.I just took a small nap and i am finnishing i am takeing a small break. I dont think any amount of coffee will save me today i kind of wish today was over with.I dont want to listen to thoese teacher bitches today i would rather slit my wrists with a piece of rock candy.That would be sweeet.lol I cant wait till today and tomorrow are over because i have two whole days off.I have great plans for the weekend but no real expectations.I dont want to make any "real plans" because then i will be stuck to them.But what i do want is to spend time with my Jeff."Who i miss very much"oh ya "i will see you at the java tonight at 8:30" cant wait to see you. Ok bla bla bla bla yawn yawn yawn i know im rambaling so i will stop.To all have a good day To some have a great day and to the sleep deprived have a short day..... Current Mood: crankyCurrent Music: I dont fucking know i think its santana |
| Tuesday, May 24th, 2005 |
| 3:38 pm |
Turn of events.....
A New turn of events has occured at school today. Went down to the book store for coffee as usual were seeing my buddy Ryan.I was informed that i had to get my office procedures books witch i thought i had bla bla bla long story short when i went to the cashiers office it turns out my account has a rather large lump sum of money on it.I will be receving it in the mail at the end of June.I am going to pay my bills off and still have quite a bit left over any ideas on what to do with it anyone.....I should be smart about it and bank it but even if i do that with half of it i will still have a nice chunk left... Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: Ren and Stimpy Happy Happy Joy Joy |
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